Is Autumn Here?

It's been far to long since I have had a chance to blog.  Summer was a whirlwind of activity...some good, so not so good.  However I'm praying the speed of summer is behind us.  The temperature has not caught up with the new season yet...I am tiring very quickly of high 90 degree days.  But soon, very soon we should start seeing or rather feeling cooler days.  Still no rain...things down here are so dry!  The wildfire that we experienced down here recently really made people stop and think...and realize the real trouble we are in.  Daily we are on our knees and petitioning God for an over-abundance of soaking rain.

But the physical drought is just one thing we are experiencing.  I, in particular, have been in a spiritual drought.  I have been praying not only for rain to refresh our land but also for His "rains" to cover me and my household.  We are in a place right now that isn't so comfortable.  A place that we just are not enjoying...  When these trials began I turned tail and ran away.  I didn't realize it until suddenly I felt so empty and so alone.  And then I started making compromises in my life.  And the emptiness stated getting deeper.  I realized that God had never left my side...it was me that ran away but for some reason I couldn't get back into His arms.  Like I was so ashamed of my attitude that I didn't deserve His love and comfort.  But you know what?  I DON'T deserve His love!  I am a sinner so full of sin that I deserve for Him to never look on me again....But...my God is so loving and so merciful...and because of His Infinite Love for me He sent a replacement to suffer the consequences of my sin for me.  What incredible boundless love that is!  And by turning away from Him during the hard times, showed just how spoiled and unworthy I am of His love.  But no matter what I do and where I go, there He is.  There has been a tug of war going on in my spirit and I am ready for it to be over.  I want to climb up in my Father's lap and revel in His love for me....The trials we face may not be fun or enjoyable...truly they are really hard but my head knows that He uses these times to grow us...I just need my heart to get that.  And while I am praying for my heart to catch up I am going to lean on my Father and remember that in my weakness He is made strong.

I am weary ~ physically, spiritually, and emotionally.  But I am crying out to Heaven and I know that He hears me and He is preparing for me a place of rest for my weary soul...

So soon, very soon the hot days of summer will be behind us and the cool, fresh, crisp air of Fall will be on us.  This is a very real physical reminder of God's faithfulness...a good reminder to trust Him and His choices for our lives.  Everything works together for the good of those that love Him.

I truly hope to be on here again very soon....Blessings to you all!